Are we there yet?

The summer has ended and for me; it is filled with both bittersweet emotions and memories. I will not say I regret one experience that has occurred although I will admit it has been a long strange trip filled with the excitement and fear often provoked by riding on a rollercoaster. I am curious as to what lies ahead for the fall and how it will impact me. There is ultimately a part of me that would rather stay in this last bit of summer despite the mediocre excitement of this time. I can only imagine the events transpiring over the next few months. I can keep myself up all night with my covers pulled to my chin in fear of what could be. I certainly hope there will be some days of pure enjoyment and hopeful spiritual growth but for now, my mind is focused on the horrors of the unknown. I fear the questioning of “me” that is to come. I know it is there and I know it is necessary but part of me would rather find myself stuck in the humdrum of the past where at least I know what to expect